360 Degree Spinning Life

2007-03-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

how dare he play me tat way!!!

bloody hell...!!!

im gonna kick his ass to the moon n let him rot to death ther...

2007-03-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

new hairstyle ,

new life...

thanks to valentine...damn*

2007-03-11T03:35:00.001-07:00

kinda crazy this days..

dunno wat i've been doing lately..

miss having someone to talk to...

2007-02-24T03:34:00.000-08:00

kinda hope tat time can go back to that day...

but its impossible...

time the most cruel thing in this world..

and also the fairest among all....

2007-02-15T08:49:00.000-08:00

i was too stress n angry about the damn lecturer.

went shopping in 1Utama afta class...

oh yea...i oni went to the class for an hour..

damn 1 utama have ntg to shop oso...

but luckily...at the end bought a pair of wedges...

been looking for such heels for quite a long time..

hehehe...at least something is going right today :)

and the best thing is...im HOME...!!

holiday until 25 th feb..

but too bad..afta tat,i'll be dead...;(

2007-02-15T08:44:00.000-08:00

im so tired of this damn life..

so so so damn tired...cried like shit on valentine's day..

bet nobody noes...oni 1 of my fren noe coz she called me..

and i couldn't stand the stress anymore...

damn lecturer...been treating me like a trash..

just bcoz im a full scholarship student doesn't mean

tat i don't hav the right to study ther OKAY?

i EARNED it...and u EARNED ur salary..

so do ur fucking damn job and start treating me with respect!

if ur not intesrested in teaching or guiding me,

den FINE...just keep ur bloody bitchy mouth shut...

im fine with my life without U....!!!

2007-01-19T21:31:00.000-08:00

aih...im so tired man...

doing siewying prom dress sample..

n the best thing is...i never even measure her...

i guess best fren for 12 yrs can agak ur size..

hahaha......if ktn fit..den i mati giv her c lah..

ahahhaa......i need to go to her hs leh...no car...damn it man

later have to go shah alam hs sumore...

sis bbq tonight...

i haven start doing joseph assignment man...

im soooooo dead...

nvm lah...i prefer wasting my time doing the dress 1st..

hohohoh.....XP

2007-01-18T05:39:00.001-08:00

thank god its thursday........ahaha

im soooo tired today...afta days of restless sleep in kl apartment,

i went home in the afternoon and i SLEPT till 7 PM!!

ahaha....my eyes was so bengkak this morning whne i woke up,my frens

all laugh at me..DAMN them..

when i woke up from my nap..my MUM laugh at me again...

she say my face like PAO!

hei..ur the one who giv birth to me..like pao oso u giv me wan leh

apala....XD u heard b4

"bagaimana acuan begitulah kuihnya"??

oh ya...i 4got to bring my specs home...so...im using my lens for the whole day...

my god...my eyes gonna be blind soon..

T.T ARGH.....!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-13T20:25:00.000-08:00

its sunday...and i pig out until its 12 noon..XD

i haven finish doing joseph assignment...argh.......sumbody save me..!!!

i haven finish drafting and sewing aisah assignment...its due on wednesday..

and u KNOW WAT!.i haven even finish drafting it yet...i wonder how am i gonna

finish sewing a jacket in a day time...

2007-01-13T08:07:00.000-08:00

Yahoo....!!!! im planning to go malacca with my frens....

(although its just malacca but pls bear with me)

ahahha...its been a long long time since i last went anywher with my frens for HOLIDAY....T.T.....

it started with...

1) my mum got public bank free hotel voucher..

2) i got my credit card...

3) its a 5 start hotel...and sudenlly i miss going to jonker street...

4) i ask sooyin about it...

5) kien tat found out and he said tat he wanted to join too.....

SO,...i got myself a driver to go there...

HOHO!!!......

2007-01-13T08:02:00.000-08:00

lalalala......im doing a prom dress for siewying...lalalla...

i got my own personal barbie doll...and the best thing is...she can walk and talk...XD

lallaa...she'll start promoting my brand in australia...!!!

my own personal barbie doll....

damn damn happy and excited....

hohohohohoh....

2006-12-31T23:42:00.000-08:00

lalala...its been 4 months since i last had a new post..hehe...

its 1st of jan now...new life...new yr...

went little asia with sue n sooyin last night...

b4 tat was in station one..but the damn waiters n waitress ignore us..

we walk away dengan "yao yengnya"...

haha...damn pissed off when the 2nd cafe we went..

actually ask us for entrance fees...damn it..

now i understand

Y UR GOD DAMN CAFE IS EMPTY!!!

at the end...we went to little asia tats quite empty and quiet..

sooyin and me..

me n sue...

peoples are looking at us like we're crazy..

coz we took photos of the foods..XD

my ice cream toast...:)

sue's spaghetti.

soo yin's drink...

sue ling's drink...

Went sue's hs afta eating...save photos from her com until siow...

haha...went home at 11 sumthing...

on9 saw siow cha bo siewyin pula...

i tot she in macau cant on9..swt...

2006-08-19T07:59:00.000-07:00

i guess many things had happened this week...its the most stressful week of the year to me...im so depressed...i have not eaten for 3 days...now i noe i could actually survived without eating for 3 days....i just dun have the appetite to eat anything....

y is it tat everybody have sumthing to look forward to? i wanted it so so much...but i have none....i've always wanted a reason...to live each day of my life...a reason to look forward to the day after tomorrow...i wanted the will the live.....

i wanted to have a person to miss......
i wanted to have a wish for sumthing tat i wanted...
i wanted to have a hope for wat i wanted....
i wanted to have a day to look forward to......

will i actually find it????

2006-08-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

muahahhaa...im too bored at home....still haven start doing joseph's assignment...hehe
i guess im too lazy...who the hell cares...i'll just manage it in the end...*ngek ngek ngek*

we went for a dinner in bukit tinggi last night...the funny thing is....sooyin expect ME to show KT the way to sueling's house....she forgot...that i have NO SENSE OF DIRECTION!!!!!!!!!!muahhahaa....

oh yeah...n den thers this case about fighting to pay the bill....my goodness!!!!!!!........
i already warned sooyin tat kt will surely TRY sumthing....*sob sob*.......
we took a pic...but have to wait for the shop to wash it out...* sob sob *.........they actually sang the birthday song LOUD and CLEAR........!!!!!!!!..(my phobia)

i feel so guilty for wasting his $$$$$$$........*sobs sobs*
nvm....i'll surely pay him back sumday...*smiles evily*........ngek ngek ngek...

oh ya...im supposed to sew out a man's short pants this semester's project....hehe....i already found someone to try on it afta i sew it out....tat person will be....KAKKAKAKKAKAK!!!!!!!!!!!!
i bet he feel like crying...coz im gonna choose sumthing flowery and pinkish....!!!!!
hahahaha.........

P.S / be prepared kt....ngek ngek ngek....

2006-08-11T23:01:00.001-07:00

lalallaa.....im going out with my ns frens again!!! yeah...we're going midvalley ont he 27th august....i MISS them so MUCH....!!!!!!!!!!! especially jue shea and yi ching!!!...
*i love to bully Yiching*...ngek ngek ngek...

Miss u Guys so MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!..........but anyway..i DON'T miss NS training...oni my FRENS!!!!hohohohohoh.....................i kinda miss having not enuff sleep for months...and walking around like a zombie...!!!!!!!!!! muhahahhaha..................*i will have it soon in raffles*

2006-08-11T23:01:00.000-07:00

lalallala.......yup..i get older today...hehe..... anyway..im soooo bored at home...
went for my violin n piano classes today...dman tired my fingers...my arm feel like breaking..
keke...oh ya..my roomate in raffles called and say happy birthday today....
she's kinda funny and cute although i oni get 2 noe her a month ago..keke...

im too lazy to finish mr joseph assignment...oh ya,we're goign to the national art gallery nex monday in colour theory class...its kinda fun to get out of the school once in a while although my classes are very nice...we can eat, drink,rest anytime and even take a walk outside the class for a break...the BEST is to be able to tok in the phone and SMS while studying...hehe

i guess im beginning to act like garfield...WE hate MONDAYS....!!!..hehe...because its the beginnign of the week...it means tat we have another 6 more days to suffer in a week...!! kekkekeke...i love friday..because we have DRAPPING class...!! its so fun to POKE the dummy...!!! i noe i sounds weird...hehe...but bliff me..when u're stress,u'll be obssesed in poking the dummy like me..*smile evily*

thers a fashion show coming nex september...i guess september will be a VERY busy month for me...ther'll be the event in eastin hotel wher they gave out certs for the scholarship holder,fashion show in j.w.marriotte hotel...and also my end of term examination...im SOOOOOOOOO stress...!!!!we're supposed to finish up 3 skirts and a pants for the end term project...*sob sob*

oops...!!!! i almost forgot...im supposed to sit for music theory exam on the 21st of august...so..im skipping mr joseph fashion drawing class tat day....he will DEFINITELY ask me to replace it on other days....NO!!!!!!!! i don wanna face him 1 on 1 ALONE!!! he''ll make me so stressed!!!........ *im scared of him*

2006-08-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

im blogging again........~~~ tats weird...*haih*.......
life have been nice to say the least...
just a little...tired and confused......
but i have gotten wat i have always wanted...soo....wats ther to complain about..
i guess tats human...they're always......unsatisfied..or should i say greedy?
hehe...anyway...tomolo's my bday...but i HATED bday....
i dunno y.......
its just tat...its always nothing special...
just a day wher u get older,
a day wher u sleep at home,
a day of avoiding question about my celebration,
a day wher u feel special AND yet normal...
practically its just another NORMAL day...
oh ya...i dreamt tat everyone forget about my bday..
and my bday just passby in a flash..hehe...
haiya.........IN SHORT....
I JUST HATED MY BDAYS....!!!!!!

anyway...forget about tat...
im already 5 weeks in raffles...i learn alot about clothes these few weeks...
and i realise now tat its not as easy as it looks,
its not just a glamorous course/job...
its so much more than tat...its about hard work, never giving up spirit,
and patience...i mean LOTS of patience...
fashion design is a course wher u have to THINK...
its not a much theory course..its more to practical..
u cantexpect the lecturer to spoon feed u everything...
so u ahve to THINK....its a course wher u need to have common sense..
and a good fast working brain..
its also very competitive...everybody wanted to be the best...
thers no such thing as true friendship...
perhaps they will sacrifice evrythign to get to the top...
haih....dman kiasu...im beginnign to get kiasu too...
i dun mind losing...but not losing to someone i think have bad taste..
and of coz not someone i dislike/hate!!!
haih....im always sighing...

* realised im being emotional today...just ignore me..hehe

2006-04-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

Went shopping in kl with Yi Ching...haha...guess wat??? she get up late ...tat PIG !!!!!! we went for a movie..haha damn funny man the "She's the man"...laugh like hell in the cinema... oh ya...i just found out tat YI CHING'S A GREAT BIG CARNIVOR...!!! she loves nuggets...hahahhaha we went sg wang to grb sum comics...( i mean me not we) haha..went lot 10 to eat leng chee kang..yeah..my favourite....keke....den patah balik to borders in time square to buy book...den rush home.. tired liek hell...went aunt house n have dinner...4got to watch my 7 swords...!!!!

2006-04-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

I GOT MY SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!

Life is So Colourful Suddenlly............

Or...am I dreaming?????

2006-04-20T23:35:00.000-07:00

The things that i found out today...?????

20 applicants for raffles design institute is actually 2 courses add together..means..ehehhee 20 ppl are fighting for 2 scholarship instead of only 1..
The results are not out yet....means......
I still have a CHANCE....!!!!!!
Siew Ying are right....I'm at least a little lucky.....
Siew Ying updated her blog....(now tats weird)...tat lazy girl....

2006-04-17T03:27:00.000-07:00

why is it tat nobody is picking up my call when i needed them most? wat the hell lah...its like frens are sumthing tat will oni exist when u 're in a damn happy mood but not in a stressed and depressed mood.damn it!!! fine lah....i tok 2 myself...its bete than toking to those ungrateful wench...

2006-04-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

IM SO SO SO SO SO BLOODY STUPID....!!!! HOW COULD I BE SO NERVOUS TAT I RUINED MY CHANCES OF GETTING THE SCHOLARSHIP??? i was interviewed this morning in raffles design institute...im actually very prepared for the question they will ask...and guess wat?? im too bloody nervous and my voice kept wavering...its like im babbling instead of speaking...Y???? Y???? they said tat i was supposed to have a very good chance in getting this scholarship, but i ruined it because im too nervous...they noticed my discomfort..and they even gave me another chance...im so so so so so bloody stupid...if oni i could turn back time...i just couldn't stop myself from being nervous because i reli reli needed this scholarship...i was in such a stressed mood because this is my only chance of entering raffles design institute...although the results are not out yet...my chances of getting is so low...20 ppl are fighting for oni ONE scholarship...i wish i could express out my own thoughts n feelings...but like wat they say....im too reserved...im not expressing out my own feelings...im so depressed now....could anyone help me??? will i get the scholarship???

2006-04-11T19:03:00.000-07:00

early morning siewying sms me...wake me up to tok 2 her in msn...haha...she make me worried like hell this few days...tot sumthing happened to her..rupanya frens case...aih...im so bored....later got piano class....its killing me to go to piano...takign diploma test nex yr coz im too late to register for this yr....stupid ns lah...anyway if the ns cert can get me the star education fund...i did be happy to go ns....hahahhaha...anyway..siewying complain alot to me...aih...cant reli help her...wat 2 do...im not in australia...just hope she'll be okay soon...and come back in june....she ask me to pick her up in airport...im gonna go bising kien tat...hope he can drive...HAHA!!!!

2006-04-07T22:08:00.000-07:00

woke up today...couldn't sleep really well....went for my violin class....and guess wat i remembered sumthing when my fren ask
*why would you choose to b in the art stream instead of science?*
*why not? i noe wat i like and wat i want to be.many ppl think i'm stupid but i have no regret in my choice.*
i remembered..last yr...i dreamt that i was about to die...(i noe this sound stupid but bear with me pls) i was in a state of shock...the oni thing i could remember god telling me is...im dying...i cried & cried...it was then tat i realised i dun wanna die yet...there's still so many things i haven done...god took pity in me and he gave me until 2 am tat midnight...i thanked him profusely...but it was too late...its already late at night...i wouldn't have the time to c my frens,to achieve my ambition,to look around the world...its already too late...it was tat dream tat make me realised...how short our life was...human are so fragile...we oni have ONCE in a lifetime....we do not own our life,we oni have the right to use it...so why should we be so stubborn about things tat we SHOULD & SHOULDN'T do???...so why giv up on something tat u like in order to stay 4eva in the safe & comfort zone without risking to look into this world?? are we too afraid to even look into this world??? sometimes it is the flaw that intrigues us in life...

2006-04-06T23:27:00.000-07:00

im so so so so bored....anybody could help me? im stuck in the office...haha..anyway the funny thing this morning or should i say midnight....IS.....i heard my cousin sleep talking...and it really freak me out...well wat u expect? im half asleep...imagine someone talking in her sleep so loudly tat it will wake u up from ur dream...my goodness...gave me such a fright....but its overall very damn funny...if im not mistaken,she's complaining about herself being very dark....HAHA!!!!....oh ya..i get to noe tat i will be called for an interview mebe on the nex week or the week afta nex for the start education fund....im damn worried bout it although i dun show it...haih...im usually tounge tied during these kind of situation....but I SERIOUSLY NEEDED THE SCHOLARSHIP!!!!...IF NOT DO YOU THINK I'LL EVEN CONSIDER IT A SECOND TO GO FOR THE INTERVIEW???????....T.T

2006-04-04T04:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday night couldn't really sleep well...damn stressed and fan about college fees...damn it...kl campus no degree course....so i have to go singapore on the 3rd yr IF i get to study *** design...haih...its too expensive in singapore...almost 100K per yr....if oni MONEY WILL FALL FROM THE SKY.......*sighs* STOP DREAMING YEEPENG!!!!!!......i guess i should work hard on some part time job to earn some money...although i noe its almost impossible for me to earn 100K....anyway...i have to try right?????...this morning follow aunt to subang to work...she's lonely...aih...haha...spend the whole day reading "why men don't listen & women can't read map"...its damn true man the story...i was out looking for part time job in usj taipan this afternoon....i stop outside of this shop...OMG its a pet shop....i thought i will luv this job...BUT they need sumone tat COULD handle pets...i walk away immediately when i read that...the evening went off with me eating roti canai in office & reading books...then we went and tapau food for my mum & sis...plan to go aunt house later to grab some japanese movie vcd...keke...

2006-04-03T03:47:00.000-07:00

Oh ya...big news...!!!!! i got my letter from school today....i was like....OH MY GOODNESS!!!!! .....ther must b sum mistakes....i was awarded the pelajar terbaik untuk mata pelajaran sains & english literature SPM 2005....i was in a state of dumbstruck when i started laughing like crazy....am i dreaming?????.....nope....anyway...who cares bout the bloody award...afterall wat i wanted all along is not this.....mebe oni God could grant me wat i wanted....*sighs*

2006-04-03T01:10:00.000-07:00

Just get to know tat livoon is going singapore raffles soon....aih....im supposed to start raffles this month in kl togetehr with her....but sum stupid problems....im under the spell of "RECONSIDER" by my mum.....haih...everybody around me had started with college life n sum of them are preparing for their form 6....looks like im the oni 1 stuck between my spm n college life....spm is over...but im stuck in a long road b4 i reach the words COLLEGE!!!! siewying went to australia....livoon going singapore....n the others sum are going to TAR and oso form 6....im the oni 1 that have made my choice of life...but yet the oni 1 WITHOUT choice....my mum said tat its a waste to study **** design with my spm result. To me, the biggest WASTE is to get GOOD result and have NO CHOICE on wat to study....i dun mean tat my results are reli good...if i could turn back the time...i did rather have 0 As....even huishan get to study sumthing tat she like....if oni i am rich...if oni i have choice...if oni ART are accepted into my family....too bad...sum ppl reli think tat ART is a waste of time and rubbish....however,i really really am grateful towards livoon....if it wasn't bcoz of her...i wouldn't realise wat i wanted in my life....i wouldn't realise wat satisfie me most in my life....tonight i will be hanging out with livoon for the last tiem b4 she started her college life...i dun even noe i should b jealous or sad ....im jealous tat she get to study wat she wanted but yet sad tat even she had moved on and start a new life....i'll never get to c her until her holidays....

2006-01-30T10:52:00.000-08:00

Today wake up early in the morning...terus bath n prepare to go siewying...must spend some tiem with her since she's going australia soon...gonna miss her...muahahhaa....frens since standard 1 leh...how many ppl could reli maintain their frenship for solong....right? anyway...i will sms her if can..haha..and im returning to ns tomolo...o cant sent her off...and she doesn't wan her fren to send her too...she noes she will make the klia banjir...haha anyway i think i'll spend time calling her on tat day...if i can lah...me n sock hua cousin (kien tat) went her house today...so we sit the rn eat eat n gamble gamble..at last her brother win all pula...haha...den i sudenli say wanna go sp makan tuna sandwich...they looked at me like im crazy...den i say either now or nex yr...haha at last we went oso...kien tat belanja wor...pay him back he duwan pula...suak suak...den we go shopping...haha we treat kien tat liek galgal....pull him masuk all those butik...haha den he buy wallet...me n siewying chose colour for him...haha...den we go take sticker photo...for memory ma...since we gonna go separate life...this yr changed alot...everybody's like leaving me...leading their own life...haih...me too...im like forced to make a decision on wher my life gonna lead to..anyway...i gonna c to it afta my ns...now i gonna concentrate on how 2 survive my ns...fun but tired like hell lah...haih...and now my leg like this...i dont think i can go for any latihan for few days...afta our sticker photo...we went home loh...tat siow kia kien tat....teurs run home leave we 2 gals ther...so dark sumore...actaully he rjust went hoem for siewying's cd...den we went home d...haha...when he reach ktm again...he not ther d...den he sms say sori he leave us ther pula....too late lah siow kia..we kena kidnap d...hahahaha...!!!! den me go uncle's house...last tiem of seeing sabah's cousins...gonna go back ns tomolo wat...so went home n pack..den sleep until sis wake me up to on9...she say im so blur when i sleep...i din realise she's toking to me oso...haha

2006-01-30T10:25:00.000-08:00

January 29th :~
1st day of cny....last night i overnight in my cousin house...haha...they gamble till around 4.30 am...i slept at 2 sumthing..kenot tahan man...so damn sleepy...anyway...kesian them guys...i sleep on bed...3 of them sleep downstairs floor...haha...the good thing of being gals...keke they even must pek like sandwich bhind the atos...haha mebe i shouldn't stay ther tat night...feel like very mafan to them...haih..nvm...over ledi oso...den i went hoem this morning...pompom n change clothes...no ppl at home..haih..den i drive go uncle's house in chiliung..haha...everybody's ther..sudenli oni me n sis kena pull go sunway lagoon with them...anyway...this is my 1st tiem to lagoon...so embarassing...stayed in selangor for how many yrs d...1st tiem to lagoon....the pirates revenge is fun n damn scary...haha...360 degree..and then we sat ther for 1 hour to wait for cousins to come out of the damn water...haha..and then we go sunway piramid...we went SKATING....!!!! muahahahha..tot i couldn't skate at 1st...manatau....my leg is fine with it...lucky...but i fall butt down onto the floor...n im sitting ther n laughing liek an idiot...AHHAHAAH!!! den my cousin help pulling me up...keke...the WORST thing is....my BODY GLOVE JACKET kena the damn glove's colour...damn it...afta tat we rush home and i started scrubbing it like hell...lucky it went off...or else i will curse the pyramid ice ring like shit...hahahha my 1st new yr with so much of activities...normally...i would have spend it at home with my parents sleeping or just munching some snacks...mebe its diff because i've changed and my cousins from sabah came.....